2021.10.18 05:57 klsi832 Homer Defined - Thursday, October 17, 1991
2021.10.18 05:57 benfhibbs Random shot I took of the buddy lol
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2021.10.18 05:57 IHaveMeDoubts Not a card but a program from the under 20 world cup which was won by an Argentina side that included Maradona
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2021.10.18 05:57 Starry-night-kitten What is the most badass thing you did as a kid?
2021.10.18 05:57 mwthompson77 What’s a conspiracy theory Alex Jones was right about?
2021.10.18 05:57 Disastrous-Swim-9459 Billionaire NFTs- Abuse
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2021.10.18 05:57 ahshitfuckme the only way i can have breakfast in bed is if i dragged my ass to the kitchen
2021.10.18 05:57 Cuntaccino I've just been thinking a lot
A friend died pretty recently. I loved her. I mean really, we said that to each other every day. It was not sexual, not that that really matters.
But I wasn't there for her, obviously. And all it would have taken was a little bit of presence- I could have saved her life if I was there, I know that for a fact, I could have been her insulin buddy.
A lot of my friends were at her house that night, but one by one, they all left. We all would party together when we got the chance, but I couldn't be there that night because I worked early the next day. Another friend, who deserves no guilt or shame, was the last to leave... he had no idea she was going into shock and dying. He told me that she called him by my name a few times. That still makes me cry a little bit. He thought she was just drunk, but I know what was happening. She knew that I would understand.
Some people say she killed herself, which is...maybe partly true? Drinking as a type 1 diabetic is, as I understand it...kind of like Russian roulette. I yelled at a few people for saying she killed herself though.
I don't care if it was suicide or just an accident or maybe suicide and she changed her mind, I feel like I failed her. And that fucks me up because I did everything I could for her...every time.
She was a waitress in a restaurant I worked at...I left for a job in concrete. The place was, and still is, mismanaged. She called me. She asked me to come in and work because she was not getting tipped (cold food, long wait times, BOH walkouts) and she knows I'll do it right. She doesn't need to tell me, I know already that on top of rent, groceries, whatever, she also needs to buy insulin.
On top of that, I have always been a sucker for this: "Joe we need you everyone else is fucking it up, show them how." Say no more, your wish is my command. I gave everything I had and honestly, it worked.every night after my concrete job I was training dudes, making par lists, training my own manager at one point????, line cooking every night, writing schedules, new executive chef every week.
Things turned around quickly, but my late friend got the shit end of the stick from management(many good, dedicated people also did) and left. I was offered many stay-on bonuses to push my last day later and later. Finally, my LAST DAY.....I'm cooking mother's day brunch. I was told at the end of my second to last shift that her body was found in her apartment.
It all felt so pointless...she was the only reason I ever went back there. I couldn't stop telling people. Waitresses, management, everyone. I was a mess of a human being, I wanted to be curled up in a corner in the basement but I was alone there cooking burgers for absolute strangers to carry out to tables, one man kitchen... what the fuck? Why was I there on that day?!! But why would I be anywhere else? Like it's gonna hurt less if I'm at home? But every ten minutes I had to walk past the last place I'll ever see her. Worst 8 hours of my life so far...
And it was the capstone to months of my every extra effort. Absolutely relentless, round the clock work, pay far less than what I could have had at other gigs, emotional labor off the clock, pure motivation every day, an absolute labor of love amounts to just big knot in my chest and a feeling powerlessness.
Sure, whatever, I developed my skills and even new instincts that have absolutely benefitted me. Some of my strongest and best friendships are with dudes who worked in that kitchen with me, so there were absolutely huge payoffs, but I did all of that for one reason, and that reason died on the floor of her apartment.
I've felt a lot of guilt, but that's not what's bothering me anymore. I've beaten myself up enough, maybe I'll feel guilty forever, that's fine I guess.
The problem is, I feel like there's no one there to save me the same way there was no one there to save my friend. I don't necessarily need an insulin buddy every time I drink alcohol, but damn, I probably need a little saving sometimes.
Cause in a weird way love is something that only counts if you can do it right every time...you fuck it up once, it's GONE. I don't like feeling like that, but that's just how it is. I don't want to be close to anyone anymore. I can't give everything and still lose again.
I have a new job now. It's far away. I don't feel deeply connected to anyone anywhere near me physically. I travel large distances to see my close friends. There is never enough time to see all of them. I'm really lonely when I am in the city I work in.
It sucks and I feel like this might have all been a bad decision, but i made it a long time before she died. I have my dream job in a lot of ways. But a job can't do everything for a person even if they're a workaholic.
I don't know what to do.
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2021.10.18 05:57 Ansbernf I just realized Saturday night by The Misfits is literally just a MCR song with a horror punk aesthetic.
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2021.10.18 05:57 theworldagriculture Aadhar PAN Link - The World Agriculture
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2021.10.18 05:57 the_quassitworsh IQ is not the same as intelligence (130 downvotes)
2021.10.18 05:57 AlexEpyon Just got some new Hot Wheels! All going on the wall since they’re all duplicates
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2021.10.18 05:57 Completionist_Gamer This is driving me insane
So, in the Happy Feet Two video game (console version, not handheld), there is supposedly a Disco Fish in level 41, but I can't find it no matter where I look in game or on the internet because the game isn't popular enough. Does anyone know a way I can datamine this game and figure out where this thing is, because it's been driving me nuts for years now.
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2021.10.18 05:57 NFT_DigitalArt PokePunks collectibles, limited to just 500 | Only at 0.01 ETH, increasing to 0.03 ETH | Super bullish on OpenSea, sold 1/2 of collection | Get 2 NFTs for 0.01 (minting offer) | Now minting: Mega Gyarados, Shiny Bulbasaur, Shiny Snorlax | Buy now, links in comments! [X-post from /r/Rarible]
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2021.10.18 05:57 Nardork Blair cosplay! Insta; Emnardork
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2021.10.18 05:57 Impressive_Air5943 18m looking for new girls to snap [Chat]
2021.10.18 05:57 B-rex00 Mount for t2 on apc9 sd
I finally bought a apc9 sd pro and am looking for input on a optic mount. I know I’m going with a t2 and probably will go with a scalarworks, but I’m wondering what everyone else is running in case there is something better. Also what height is everyone using, I have a lower 1/3 and 1.93 scalar mount to try out but interested in peoples opinions, I will be sbr’ing this with the pdw type stock. Last question is what vfg are y’all running, planning on the a3 tactical “gernade” style but always open for suggestions. Thanks in advance.
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2021.10.18 05:57 thorlek Is there a template for a cardboard Ork stompa?
Is there a template for a cardboard Ork stompa? Im sure I read somewhere a person used a template to make there stompa but a can't find it anywhere. Thanks.
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2021.10.18 05:57 onlysuki looking for paid promo pages
Hi everyone! I'm looking for credible paid promo pages
I have been buying 150$ promo from 1 page for more than 6 month already. I gained a lot of subs who pay a lot, but now want to try some other promotions as well.
Would be grateful for any advice and ready to share the page I use!
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2021.10.18 05:57 TotBoyMk1 Non-binary Samurai
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2021.10.18 05:57 Civil_Librarian_3253 Help with oculus left controller
Hello! My Oculus Quest 2 left controller keeps blinking 3 times then shutting off, there’s no vibration and it’s not connecting to my headset. I’ve had my headset for almost a year now. Will I have to replace the controller? I can provide a video if needed. It’s not the batteries because the batteries work on my right controller. Only my left controller is acting up. Can someone help me fix this? Thanks!
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2021.10.18 05:57 rozzz1776 Enjoying the white sands
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2021.10.18 05:57 CoyeIndustries Connor goes for the gold.
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2021.10.18 05:57 SolidIcecube Simple ping program?
I need a program that I can click to mark a ping to another computer. Like I click the button on the program on one computer, it adds a 1 and then I can see that 1 on another computer. This increases with each click, 2,3,4,5,etc. I need to view how many times I click from one computer to the other.
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2021.10.18 05:57 ShiniDekuran Go to camp + find money = happy ending